Ok, so I haven't blogged in a really long time. It's not necessarily a bad thing; we had a very fun-filled summer what with Ryan & Michelle in town from England and our trip to Newport Beach, CA. Speaking of which, I should blog about our beach trip; we have a lot of good pictures (maybe next time)! But, what brings me to blog today is an aching heart. In fact, it's difficult to hold back the tears as I'm typing, but here it goes.
Javier and I have been trying to have another baby since May of 2008 with no luck. I'd say it's frustrating, but that would be an understatement. It's down right aggravating and disappointing. My heart aches on a monthly basis, not to mention the waiting and anticipation of the 2-3 weeks prior to my AF in hopes of "maybe this will be the month that we can celebrate!". And when my AF does creep up on me, I usually say to myself, "I can't do this anymore...I'm sick of this". But, a week or two later, my desire for another child outweighs my frustrations.
There has been 1 positive realization to come out of all of this frustration and that is this: I was so incredibly blessed to get pregnant with my first 3 by just thinking about it. All of them were planned and I got them when I wanted them. Spoiled, I know. But that is what I am used to, so this 16 + month period of being in limbo has me all coiled inside. Maybe that's the problem? I am being impatient, I guess, but I feel that it should have happened by now.
During all of this time, I have noticed some differences with my body compared to before I became pregnant with my other children. I have a friend who has been diagnosed with PCOS or Poly-Cystic Ovary Syndrome. A couple of nights ago we were talking and I was telling her about some of my frustrations (which were heightened this month due to me seeing my OBGYN to explore possible fertility solutions). Throughout our discussion it seemed that the somewhat recent differences in my body resemble those of her symptoms associated with PCOS. Earlier this year I was concerned about having PCOS myself, but I brushed it aside thinking I was making something out of nothing. Why on earth would I do that? I mean, I have a lot of pain 2-3 weeks out of every month...why would I ignore pain? I'll tell you why; I have been so focused on getting pregnant, that is all I cared about. I admit, it's pretty stupid to ignore signs from my body that something may by wrong.
Yesterday I looked up the symptoms of PCOS and I do have about 60-70% of the symptoms associated with that condition. I really hope I don't have it; heart attacks, heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol are all the risks of having PCOS. What a bummer for those who have been diagnosed with this condition, of which there is no cure (from what I have read).
My best friend has recently been battling the horrible possibility of MS. She has had a lot of tests done and was told by her neurologist that she has a 95% likelihood of having MS. She too ignored her symptoms; she has felt something "off" with her body for 4 years! The good thing is that we both eventually told ourselves "enough is enough, we need to find out what is going on".
As I was reading her blog today about listening to our bodies, I couldn't help but agree with her point wholeheartedly. Women ARE intuitive. That's what makes us good moms...it's what makes us women. I have a cousin who put her young child down to take a nap in a closet at our grandmother's house. She just had this itching feeling that she needed to check on her young daughter and when she did, she caught the little girl playing with a dress covered in a dry-cleaning bag. I believe she actually had this bag in her face or close to it. Nothing bad happened and my cousin removed all the clothing from within the child's reach and continued to allow the little girl to nap. The possibility of what might have happened had my cousin not listened to her intuition is frightening. WE NEED TO LISTEN TO OUR BODIES...they do tell us if something is wrong or just 'not right'.
Perhaps, there is something just 'not right' with my body which is preventing me from getting pregnant. If that is the case, I know that God put doctors on earth to help us and maybe there are options for us to conceive. Perhaps I am completely healthy and it's just not in Heavenly Father's plan for me to have a 4th baby yet or ever. To which I ask Him "why do you hate me so much that you won't let me have another baby?". Upon telling my husband I felt this way occasionally, he replied "you need to hear the story in the Book of Jobe". So, he told me the story. It made me cry, it moved me. Javier thinks that my question to Him was about losing faith in Heavenly Father, but I corrected him, "even Jobe complained and that's what I am doing, complaining". It is difficult sometimes to accept the things in life of which I have no control over. My heart wants what it wants and who am I to ignore that? But, I have never, nor will I ever, lose faith in Jesus or Heavenly Father...it's not who I am. Even before I became LDS, I had a lot of faith in God. And now being a member of The Church, I have even more faith than before!
I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us all. That actually makes me thrilled because I don't think we could handle that kind of responsibility on our own. If He doesn't want us to have another child, I trust it's because it's for the best. That doesn't mean that I will stop trying anytime in the next 5 years or so (I am not above fertility treatments), but at least I do have faith. I also believe that He is always trying to teach us lessons and things about life and thereafter. I can actually take a lesson out of all of this heartache I have experienced, not just with the inability to conceive a 4th baby thus far, but with getting shot in the head and losing my mother at such a young age.
I think for many of us earthlings it is so easy to think about what we don't have rather than be grateful for what we do have. So here is the lesson that I have loved to learn: to cherish the blessings that Heavenly Father has given us...which are PLENTIFUL! My life with my husband and 3 children is fruitful, loving, happy and overall IMMENSELY BLESSED! To which I say to God THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! And I know He doesn't hate me at all. He LOVES me and all of us :)
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I trust HIM, I really do...
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Labels: a lot about me, faith
Sunday, June 7, 2009
A Swim in a Waterpark, well...sorta
Waterslides
Lazy RiverAfter zipping down the totally enclosed waterslide, it dumps you into a small, moderately deep wading pool that is for the exiters of the waterslide only ( just like all the waterparks have). Both Christopher and Marley went down twice and Javier went once. I totally got gypped on the waterslide, but that's okay because I got to swim and have fun with Jaxon!

Christopher: happy to be swimming!

Christopher & Marley: not too thrilled to leave, but happy nonetheless.
Jaxon: fish outta water!

Thank you, Kelly & John!!!
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Thursday, May 21, 2009
Swimming season is here and Jaxon is prepared
Now, I can't keep them off of him...he even fell asleep on the couch with them still attached! Jaxon just tickles me pink with his antics.
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Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Marley is growing up...
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Our Roadtrip to Pinetop, Snowflake & Payson


Front View of the Temple
This is etched above the enterence.
Side view
Gorgeous Golden Statue
They have a new community of houses surrounding the Temple and some of those houses are gigantic and right next to the Temple, like this house down the hill. What you see to the left of the temple is all 1 house! What a great neighborhood!
Sorry about the glare, but isn't this building huge?! It appears to be 2 stories!

I love the country feeling it sends out!
These amazing statues are situated on the front-right side of the Stake building and they represent the LDS settlers who first arrived in Snowflake (and surrounding areas)...Brother Flake and Elder Snow.
I snapped a photo of the plaque in front of these statues that explains the history of how Snowflake was founded and by whom. Perhaps you can zoom in to read it, I found it pretty interesting...
We had a grand time on our trip and we feel so happy that we could experience our first viewing of the Snowflake Temple together as a family. Our kids thought the buildings and hills were awesome, but it will take a little more time for them to fully understand how magnificent the Temples really are. We feel so blessed that they will have these memories to tap into when they do come to realize what it all means.
What a Happy Weekend!
What did you do?
Thursday, February 5, 2009
No pictures, but
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Labels: me, weight loss
Friday, January 16, 2009
This is why I chose to be a Stay-At-Home Mom
I am having difficulty sleeping tonight (perhaps anxiety regarding my little vacay tomorrow?) and therefore I am catching up on some very neglected recorded TV shows. At the end of the recording was the beginning of the next program which happened to be the daytime news. I decided to watch...little did I know that I would hear a heart wrenching story which occured at a day care and ended in a child's death. I hate to be bad news bears here, but this is why I dislike watching the news. Sometimes I say to myself "hey, find out what's going on in the world; watch the news...you're sorta outta the loop". I turn the news on and bam...somebody left a baby on the side of the road or a police crew just busted a meth lab with baby bottles next to the chemicals. Then, I wonder why I even bothered. I get way too bummed out. And after seeing this clip about a woman arrested at a day care, I am pratically bawling. So, even though I should be sleeping, I am complaining about how depressed the news makes me.
However, I am also patting myself on the back for making one of the best decisions of my life to be a stay-at-home Mom (granted, an easy decision for me). But part of my decision was based on the fact that you can't trust nanny's or day care workers to NOT HURT your child. Sure, there are great people out there working with kids, but I was never going to take the chance. Check out the article (which contains a different clip in it than the one I saw tonight): http://www.kpho.com/news/18477620/detail.html
I'm not sure why this story is making me so upset, but it could be that today has been a little gloomy with the passing of a family member leaving me more emotional than usual. Of course, it could be PMS too :)
Anyway, I just had to complain about how irritating it is to turn on the news. And mention how HAPPY I am knowing my children are always safe at home with Mom & Dad :). Phew!
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Thursday, January 8, 2009
Someone Pinch Me and Tell Me it's NOT True
Jaxon just turned 3 years old on December 18th and so he started preschool. His first day was this past Tuesday, January 6th. He goes to Camelview Preschool, which is the same one both of my other kids attend/attended. He gets bussed to and from and seems to really enjoy the whole experience (especially the bus ride).



Enough with the Nostalgia for today. But I did want to mention how grateful I am that I am 8 days away from turning 30 years old (Javier turns today!), I have a fabulous husband and 3 healthy, happy, adorable kiddies and I have started the New Year with a 5+ pound weight loss!Posted by The Armenta Family at 9:21 AM 4 comments
Monday, October 20, 2008
Javier's First Day
Today is Javier's first day of work at his new job Delta Dental! Yay! I hope he has a great day and is happy with his new job.
- Javier got fired through no fault of his own. Unless, of course, you count him not becoming best buddies with his woman boss his fault. She was a real pain in the neck and I'm glad to be rid of her.
- We filed for unemployment immediately and after 7 weeks, have yet to see one penny that Javier's hard earned paychecks paid into. Ugh...
- After we waited at the DES office together for 6 hours on a "standby appointment", we were approved for AHCCCS and Food Stamps, which helped ease our stress somewhat. Therefore, we were never without medical insurance.
- Javier initially applied to 8 qualified employers and only got called back by Aflac, who then wanted him to pay $350 to get his insurance sales license and work on strictly commission. He decided not to take this job since there wasn't a guaranteed paycheck.
- Then, he applied to another 12 qualified employers and didn't get called back. Needless to say, Javier was frustrated.
- After a few days of not getting any call backs, he decided he had to apply to anyone who would hire him. So, he applied to places close to home like Macy's at the Biltmore, Safeway, Fry's etc.
- All together he send out nearly 30 applications, all via the internet, which is how everyone prefers it these days. I remember the days when you would apply in person and sometimes get an interview on the spot and sometimes get hired on the spot too. Ahh, the old days!
- He was hired by Safeway on a Tuesday and scheduled to go through training on the following Tuesday.
- That same afternoon, he received a phone call from a gentleman from Delta Dental, who Javier knows through working together when Javier worked for The Segal Company (2004-2005). Although, this gentleman (whose name escapes me currently) had interviewed several worth candidates, he was holding off on hiring anyone until he interviewed Javier.
- Javier went to the "interview" on Friday (only 3 days after he was hired at Safeway), which was breakfast at the The Good Egg with his aquantance and was hired on the spot.
- Apparently the National Consultant from The Segal Company told the man from Delta Dental that Javier is "very smart, competent and hard working. It would be in your company's best interest to hire him on the spot". That man deserves a Thank You card in the least.
- Can you believe that after 30 applications and basically no calls for 6 weeks, Javier gets 2 jobs in 1 week?!
- Although Javier did have to take a bit of a pay cut and there is a 3 month waiting period for benefits, it's a job that Javier will excel at and it won't create any stress or long hours.
- His title is Large Account Manager, which should be a walk in the park for Javier.
- We feel very blessed to have Javier working again. We loved having him home...he is such a great helper (he helped to clean the house, do laundry, cook, etc) and it was nice to spend a lot of quality time with him. I know that Javier feels his position in this family is to provide and without a job he felt a little lost. There has definitely been a little extra hop in his step lately and I don't doubt it's due to him feeling happy about his position in our family, once again!

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Saturday, October 18, 2008
Perfect Guacamole
4 Avocadoes, finely chopped
1 Serrano Chile, finely chopped (I include the seeds for more kick)
If you own a molcajete, you may use that, which will yield better results. I wish I had one.
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Labels: appetizers, food, guacamole
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Our little Jack-O-Lantern




Some things you may or may not know about Jaxon:- He is my sweetest child out of the 3. He is always ready to give/receive a kiss, hug and cuddles. Not just to Javier and me, but to at least a dozen others.
- He is a true "mommas boy" through and through. He still gets upset when I leave and is the happiest when I return.
- He has a very funny personality, always making Javier and me laugh. The picture above when he put on the old lady hat is a perfect example of the funny little things he does throughout the day.
- His favorite TV show is Crashbox on HBO. It targets children 7 years and up and he absolutely goes bananas for the educational program, which makes his parents happy :)
- He loves books and lets me read to him endlessly. What is particularly funny is when I let him look at a few books by himself, he pretends to read the stories to himself.
- He enjoys spending a lot of time playing on the swing set, especially the swings. He can't quite swing himself yet, so we help push him. I imagine him swinging A LOT when he can fly solo.
- He loves having his picture taken and always puts on a nice smile for me :)
- His blankets are his life and he carries them around everywhere with him. Even to church nursery...however, he isn't the only kid with a blanket in there.
- He has several nicknames: Jackie, Jax, Jack, Jack-Jack & Sugar Bugar.
He is a perfect boy for our family and we love him dearly. I referred to him as Jack-O-Lantern because there is so much light in him and he spreads it around. We feel so blessed to have him in our lives :)
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Saturday, October 11, 2008
A-Z Survey...anything to distract me from a football game I could care less about :)
A
• Do you wear jewelry?: just the typical married woman stuff, but I'd love a new necklace...hint, hint Javier!
Are you jealous?: um, yes. Of women who have babies and then are back into their regular clothes after 2 weeks, then bearing their bellies after 4 weeks. Nicole and Melissa come immediately to mind...ugh!
K
• Who do you want to kill?: Um, NO. Why would I reduce myself to the likes of those jerky serial shooters who tried to kill me?
• Have you ever flown a kite?: yep, love it!
Do you think kangaroos are cute?: just young ones; adults and newborns are ugly.
L

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Labels: a lot about me, survey
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Christopher Turns 6!
Christopher's 6th birthday was the talk of the house around here for the past few months. I worked really hard at getting Christopher to remember his birthday. What ended up working is that we told him that people won't be able to wish him a happy birthday or get him a present if he can't tell them when his birthday is. Worked like a charm...he remembered it in lickity split :) I fact, he went so far as to say his birthday this year is "September 16, 2008", which we thought was pretty cute.
Christopher was so excited about one of his Transformer's toys, he didn't want to look at the camera.
Tearing into the presents.
Marley: trying to be helpful ;)
Malik
Gabe
Trey
Fran Verdon (mother of the 3 nice boys) and TiTi enjoying some adult time.
Grandma Merle.
Though she looks totally unhappy here, she was actually very pleased to be at our house around all of the family.
*Sorry about the photos not being too great; I used the wrong camera which does not take good indoor-at-night pictures.*
**Special Thanks to Javi, my dad and sister for their help. We all appreciate it :)
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Labels: birthdays, Christopher
Monday, September 15, 2008
Marley's New 'Do
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
Christopher and the Treasure Chest
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Labels: Christopher, school, silly


